Down the Drain

    May 17, 2007, i felt that all my plans for this year have come to nothing. Since January 2007, i've been planning those things that i'm going to do this year for self-growth. I prayed so hard that God would give me this chance to prove myself that i can always do better...i guess, we can't have everything we want in life...one of my biggest plans went down the drain,poof! just like that...the rest of my plans seem to fade as well. i started doubting god's plan for my future..He knows how much i want it, that i've been expecting it to happen this year..(i decided not to explain more about the "plans" because it's complicated and personal) i've shared this disappointment to some of my close friends and one of them made everything easier for me. she told me not to make other people's opinion of me become my reality. i pondered on what she said and i realized a lot of things, that i know myself better and if god has faith in me, then no one, not even myself can bring me down. sometimes people live their lives based on other people's expectations that's why they often fail. we are afraid to accept our failures because people might judge us differently...i've been in that situation and i know how hard it is. i was even tempted to change the facts and pretend that everything is okay. but we can't run from reality, i let the pain and disappointment run thru my system. i locked myself in my room and cried so hard..i prayed to God. i know that god's plan for me is to prosper me and not to harm me,he wants me to have hope and a better future..right now, what keeps me going is god's promise of prosperity. i know everything happens for a reason. god knows the perfect time for everything..He knows what i need better than i do... "I know O Lord, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps." - Jeremiah 10:23

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[Tommy]

belated happy birthday teacher arlene! remember also that sometimes, it takes only one person who believes in you to make things brighter again.. well, the whole PEHM team believes in you! never lose hope. God's timing is always on the dot. take care!